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| Today marks the 3rd time I've put my watch through the washer.
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| This isn't about anybody in particular. It's just a thought that's been gestating for a while.
Haha, it's probably about me!
I'm all for self-expression--it's healthy, it's beautiful, it's wonderful.
But sometimes, don't you just want to get your gaze off your navel and look up and out and LIVE?
Has there ever been a desire in you to COMMIT, to something, anything, just GIVE IT everything you've got?
Just to something sincerely and honestly and earnestly?
Have you ever wanted to scream just to hear how loud you can go, have you daydreamed about jumping off a cliff?
Just to have gone all the way with something, to have committed?
Do you want something in your life that you can focus on, sacrificing whatever is required to keep your focus on that thing? Have you found anything truly worthy of that?
Have you ever gotten sick of safety? Of convenience? Of comfort?
Yes, the life unscrutinized is not worth living. But should life simply be scrutiny?
It's easier and easier with these half-forms, these vicarious ways of doing things, "reliving" the experiences without ever first living them.
I'm no zealot, no activist, no idealist. I love TV. But... something niggling in the back of my mind.
Bilbo Baggins. Half hobbit. Half Took, ancient warriors and defenders of the Shire. Which blood rises?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Roar.
My name is Maximus Decimus Meridius...
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I went outside and stood by the lamppost.
Like Lucy
Appropriate throwback, given what I'm going to say...
Okay, okay, back to the naturalized romanticized transcendentalist mother earth is talking to me scene-setting
Stood in the dim circle of yellow light
Tilted my head back
And caught little white snowflakes
On my tongue
And it felt beautiful. :)
Honestly beautiful. Like I was four and everything was magical again.
I like the quiet fury of snow. Fast, ominous, copious, WHOOMP, powerful. But so silent. Sneaky even...
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| Until yesterday, I honestly could not recall the last time I had had Pizza Hut or KFC.
And then I had both, in succession.
And now my stomach's rebelling.
Okay, so add those to the list of foods I can't have anymore. Which is basically McDonalds because of two bad cheeseburgers (REMEMBER, SHU???) and Subway cuz I've had it too many times (Aruna! Foot long vegetarian with everything, sweet onion sauce!).
Oh man. I had this dream... I was outside Central Chidlom and there was police everywhere... Then I turned a corner and saw the biggest buffet ever. I found the fruit table and was loading up on bright pink dragon fruit and deep orange papaya and canteloupe and those little green cakes... and then I woke up.
3.5 months to home!!!
Oh hey I'm on the ICS blogring, so this will be funny news to someone: Chang Won and I work at the same restaurant! Crazy hey?
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